Monday, 18 August 2008

Achievement

Woo.... near 2 months back in this place call Malaysia. A place where you will never see me upload any pics in posts although I loved to have lots of nice nice pics. Obviously because there is no broadband services available. I mean the real service... not fake streamyx.

I set lots of mission for my summer holidays. Well now I have to count :::

Congratz to myself, for never letting my fighting spirit down. Through hard and long battle, millions of dilemma and worries, I proved myself "nothing is impossible" . Thanks for my dad never giving up pushing and forcing me when i feel lost and hopeless. A little 1st class honour for my 1st year, didnt cheer me up at all. ... Not until I can ask myself. wow what to do with 950 pounds a month?? ^ ^ Now I throw my biggest burden of studying in UK away.!! yay surprise in this year, but still didnt get to celebrate it. Y ??

2ndly I worked for the 1st time in my life. Thats one of my must hit target for this summer and I did it. Working is piece of shit. If work is that simple, no wonder ppl keep complaining for low salary. If I ever get into job like this, I would bring a psp to work or even sleep there... till you give me sth to do !!! Working is a different experience and a worth taking 1... just not as great as studying overseas. hehe... Ok, my job involve solving problems for computers, hardwares, network in offices etc. And my master get paid 2000-3000 a month with fully fuel and car allowance. What a easy life. Morning come to work at 10, sit down and chill for 2 hours. Afternoon go to customer's place fix computer, collect cheque DO PO invoice etc... Then come back evening and call it a day. And yes you dont need a diploma even.. you just need to use a little bit of memory to remember how to fix computers. But i dont think many people will prefer life that way, me 1st to say no no ... I want a challenging and brain drain work. Work like tis is boring!!!!!!!! sien ahh!!!!!!!
Quote from 1 of my master: " Dont complain ! work like this not good meh? At least you get to sit in air conditioned office and not going out carry shit load of heavy stuff or serving people."


Next, I plan to get my music skill a little bit higher. Ori plan was to hardcore practice 4 hours a day. In the end 2 hour also duno got or not... shit .. Somemore say freshers party have to perform a short tremolo piece.. dun wan sia sui again. aih.

So everybit of leftover of holiday must enjoy to the fullest !!!

Wednesday, 25 June 2008

1st year!!

Once upon a time I was thinking what would life be like in uk and how could I survive in that cold place far far away from home. Now, I officially completed my 1st year of uni in imperial college london. Wow that's fast... even faster than I thought it can be.

Studying in uk is the best experience I had in life. Before. I might have pictured myself in overseas or fear the harsh environment to study there, through medias, dramas movies, articles....etc. My experience proved me wrong. Studying here turned out beyond what I expected. Friendly people, beautiful country, lovely streets, freestyle life. I feel less worried, less fear, less anxiety in facing life. If i were to go for an interview, imagine 2 years ago after spm, I couldn't sleep for the night, nervous and scared. There are just too many things to learn here.

Surprisingly, I don't feel homesick. This is some kind of life I was dreaming to have. Days just pass by easily. Lectures, cooking, leisure time on swimming, jogging around the park, visiting London. And yea.. of course staying in uni halls is a great challenge, especially with a roommate.
This is not discouraging anybody to save money and get a share room in any uni. Just that there are infinite many various kinda attitudes and "traits" in this world that you can ever find out. So, you will meet these people when you share your room.

Of course, degree course is not that easy. Work hard doesnt mean you will get what you expected. We have to accept failures, and always try harder. I am glad that I never rely on tuition classes. Because they never ever feed you enough information in lectures here. Lets say they will teach you abc ... and they expect you to know how to write an essay. You will be like what the heck ??! I dont even know what is a word!! Yea... to all my fellow friends who are going to university, it will be like that, no spoon feeding, no notes, just work and thinking.

I think an extra credit studying overseas is learning how to take care of yourself. Especially cooking. Everybody start from a total noob from dont dare to touch raw chicken to pro. We tried everything here, from deep frying to baking, steaming to even making roti canai.

Few more hours I am going back to Malaysia, a all summer terrible hot place call home. Now I can understand why summer is so nice. Because its time to have fun and party!! Strip off thick jackets and walk out to the warm street. And yes, after exams means party like crazy !!

We had a bbq straight after our last paper. People just get drunk before the party start and lie on the grass, 1 even got send to hospital because of alcohol poisoning.
1 really dead guy lying on the grass with 1 pretending to be drunk.


And a must for exam after party: clubbing!





And then I went for a trip in Bournemouth for 3 days. Its a famous seaside in uk.2 hours away from london. The place is really wonderful, the scenary is just so fantasy like. But it gets kinda boring after a while... anyone like this place, you can try to apply for Bournemouth university hahaha.

The place look so sunny in summer, yeah, but its freaking cold, the wind is so strong and the temperature its about 15-18C. And the seawater, we tried to jump in to swim for 10 minutes, and ended up everybody shivering, its so cold, just like ice water. No wonder people still come to malaysia for sunny beaches.


The sea side is not like malaysia. Its a cliff around the coastal line with beaches at the bottom.


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Friday, 9 May 2008

Challenge

If there is a choice, do you want to be 1st or last ?
A good question is to ask, 1st of what? Or, fall behind of who ?

Once upon a time, I used to running with zk in menjalara park. I remembered that time we just promised ourselves to run as much as we could.He want to slim and I just wanna get some fitness. Yea... at 1st I really cant jog, imagine his big belly (no offense) also win me haha!! Till that there is 1 time I run longer distance than him, and we actually ran the most 8 rounds that time. Being fit that time,we outran "ppl" when we ask them go jog haha... we didnt bothered to try harder. And I think that was the max we achieved. 8 rounds might be approx 1.5-2km... Why didnt we try harder ? The answer is simple, if you run with your friends you lead and feel contented, nobody run more than you. Why bothered to run anymore?

Now coming to imperial college... Imagine wo, that time I took lifeguard course and some more go for instructor, I consider myself ok ok la. Having the long time carved in my mind assumption that people that study( who nerds) they wont be any fit de.... Yea it might be probably true in my circle, in malaysia, in kl maybe. Thats why, most of malaysians got a complete lousy education anyway.
Story: I go ask my friend who study A levels in singapore and a girl who is from sarawak to go run in hyde park lo. Lets challenge, maybe because I think I can catch up anyway ma. ( Since 10 years of my school life, people same education standard with me, we have at least same physical status, or most of the time I wins haha) So, we started running... running.... watching that they are further away from me, I feel really tired and stupid. Until I felt really short of breath, cant see them already, noticed that I have really never run this much before le... I think about 3-4km. Haha back in Malaysia I never could run 3-4km from scratch or suddenly.

Realised that I was completely trashed... sad. Then that day I asked my other friend from my course to run with us again, again I ended last. Lol cant even finish running the whole course, which was about 2miles(3-4km) again ( approximately I think is 1.5 -2 times running around the selayang park). !!! oMg, I think i am seriously lousy here... sad.

When it comes to studies.... What do you think ? It might be simple to study a little and come out top a class, yea right...but here, I think I did put some effort in my studies, come out when I got my results, really I got nothing to say. =.=!!! If I can study 2 hours last time and come out with an A in A levels, here I study the day I was taught the topic until the test I studied another night for it, came out 56% (mayb its long since i ever get so low marks ady le).... Wah... swt.

The lesson of the day, its a 180 degrees or ( π) difference. Completely different phase of a new life. Maybe its time to take a challenge; when you never fail you never will try harder. And perhaps, its good to always lose and always thrive to win a better opponent.

Remember now my friend ts and william is training for badminton. Why suddenly train for it de? Lol, lost in match la of course. Ooh.. now I see, its so "lose face" if you keep losing and therefore you want to win; everybody have this instinct or to fight back. It always feels good to win and feels terrible to lose. 1 thing to say is persistence and passion. How long will this feeling lasts? Very short time only la....

We always say never give up, but who never gives up? Haha so I thought of my other friend now, zk. He is a person who gets interested in everything. He almost wants to try everything, and I see he didnt keep it up "all" !!of the time. Lets take it a challenge, we shall see who is successful in doing whatever he/she believes in. Right? Next time I shall see william and ts winning tournaments, (or you have quit already) ?lols. I did train for badminton, but I never win before.... I remember that time my dad asked me to train a sport that I can master at, I just reluctantly went training. Now found out that, I still lose here in imperial college malaysian society....aih. *regrets*

A good story quoted from Mahathir when he came to give a talk in London a week ago.... He says:
"
Once in his uni, there is a guy who believes in fortune alot. So in the 1st year final exams, he went to ask a fortune teller how he will do in the exams. The fortune teller told him that he is gonna fail. So he said, since I am going to fail, what for I study? And of course he didnt study and failed. On the following year, he went to the fortune teller again. He asked, will I pass this time? The fortune teller said, great, you will pass this year! After the good news he said, since I am going pass this year what for I bother study ? Of course he didnt study and fail the year... "

Sunday, 20 April 2008

Malaysia

1 month; over.....
I knew 1 month is always very short and that marked the end of my easter holidays in malaysia. Still remember that tuesday, I walked myself to tube station with my very light but damn ass big luggage bag. Then so scared that I would miss the flight(my first time taking a flight alone..lol) I arrived rather early, 5.10pm to airport for a 8oclock flight. Being so noob, I lined up in the check in line, then after a while i saw 1 sign wrote there "online check in" on the other side, oh no, wrong queue because i checked in online. Luckily i did print out the online receipt when my college printing service was rather lousy that very day. Then still figuring whether did I miss anything I need to bring back.... chocolates, bla bla... ..

Wah that day also I walked myself out in snow, (my first time touching snow lo) to buy some easter eggs and print my electronic air ticket. Then went back, go check in online and they send me email asked me to print out my online receipt, then walk out to print again.. and still snowing lighty. Then went to have lunch with my cousin, although we are studying in london only met him the 2nd time... =.='''

Staying alone in the departure area was so boring, I kept looking at the time and checked whether my gate is opened but I still didnt know my gate yet... abit nervous... Then 1 random guy ask me whether I am flying to seoul or not. Do I look korean ? Because he was nervous and didnt know what was the gate he was suppose to go too.haha. Now liquid is allowed. So another thing that I did was keep going to the toilet area for water dispenser, and also to occupy my time. I fished out 1 pound coin from my wallet and twisted 2 chewable toothbrush from a gachapon machine liked thing. William said wan try ma looks cool .. but i still c it on his wira dashboard. -_-!!AT LAST I saw my flight number and gate no. boarding now... but I too saw 1 sign, "pls be aware that it may take up to 40mins to get to ur respective gate" wtf ? shit ar .. boarding now means must be there in 15mins.. walao ... walked fast fast... ceh reached there in 5 mins and I have to wait for 30mins there to board a boeing 777 (according to Aaron Lee our "pilot to be" its quite high tech but smaller nia).
This time around I am used to the entertainment on board and quickly sit down to watch as much movie as I can. I remembered last year in september, I didnt have mood to watch any movie and sitting on a plane for a long journey for the 1st time, I was not quite used to it. Reached Dubai for a transit.. kanasai, damn sien walked here and there....

Ok, Malaysia time. As I stepped out into KLIA I felt damp and soaky air. Since when malaysia smell like alot of algae floating in the air ? lols. Then I looked at the sign boards ... wah damn long didnt see malay words liao, it wrote "tuntutan bagasi <---" but didnt say luggage collection or what, just said "arrivals hall". Then when I turned left... no more sign. ha ha typical malaysian, so pro .. we no need sign 1!! Then I went to search for the tequila tick siang asked me to "help" him buy at a duty free shop. After I found it, I went to pay. That fella said passport please.. in a blur malay slength, I kinda cant get what he said, then I asked him again twice.. swt. Ahh, back to malaysia for first time in 2008. First thing I felt terribly hot. Imagine wo that day I wore the same pants and shirt out the snow, now all my glands on the surface of my skin was like itching so badly that sweat is like going out in a big pressure. (Can see red spots on my skin) What I did for the 1st thing ? ha ha sleep until the next day 7pm until my mum back from school asked me "wah u haven wake up ar ??". Then I called every1 I could for a mamak(argh so missed it). Sorry la hyau ... cause u to crash ur car just to give face to me .. ha ha and shibin to suffer stomachache after the crash . ha ha ha ha! I adapted to the malaysian climate much quicker than the dry London 1. Although London was much better city, I still felt a pleasant,unique, nice and warm place to stay in Malaysia. First of all food. Really no where in London serves a better meal than a nice spicy supper where friends can sit down in a big table, order drinks and chat the whole night with spacious area while talking loudly without needing to care about your behaviour. The next best thing, after the nice satisfying supper, just sit into an air conditioned car, and blast your way home! (but not like hyau la of course ^.^) *Analogy to london, instead of mamak, head urself to a senior's flat, drink until ah ma also cant recognise then after that found out shit!! I need to walk 40mins home while taking care of bunch of drunk ppl with urself dizzy. Then walk 2 hours using the long "enjoyable" way. Its actually freezy cold 1 le in the middle of the night, why walk 2 hours? not 40mins meh ? Because i told u "drunk" ma... drunk already walk back malaysia also can.

2nd:- still london food suck. You can pay up to 20 pounds for a meal of roasted duck and imperial seafood pot in a chinese restaurant.Good food?I would say great for a person who stay there half a year and forget about where he came from. Wah I use this amount, I go watch 2 movies 2 outings + buy 1 padini t-shirt (dunno why kim hung has tis sudden strange obsession in shopping nowadays... super swt) then pay fuel and tol fees to gua tempurung, pay also to get in "grand tour" and after that go ipoh eat kao kao ,enjoy a thick aroma white coffee (with ICE ar! of course not HOT 1) !!
OR one might have to open a packet of ipoh old town white coffee, go kitchen boil water, say hi to few ang mohs, thank mr. sm ken for belanja me 1 packet of white coffee from malaysia; then sit down there in a small room sipping HOT coffee... put on headphone (not speaker) and play a 5 on 5 very smooth without lag dota game.

Anyways, I do still prefer to stay in Malaysia. Because I think I have this "malaysia" borned in me. Sometimes its hard to make oneself to behave so well in London. Come back, just say.. aiya tis is malaysia la! Drive a car, recklessly (乱乱来)who cares? idk, but dont until hyau extend la.... Then go where also can... eyes look here look there.. london dun hav meh? Ask mr. sm ken, for a Misato (japanese restaurant in chinatown) recommendation. Once he said, that meal there was satisfying, why ?he said "One leng lui hk girl sat bside me, and I keep looking at the mirror opposite me ".. lols. Ask mr bc again... diu .. we went there saw nth! ha ha

Malaysia:-
go carefour buy stuff, saw 2 ppl there choose grapes, pluck here pluck there dig until the whole grape like his grandfa plant de like dat. In london sainsbury, I remembered I said a sorry to everytime my trolley near is another trolley. Back here, I said 1 word of sorry to an asshole who doesnt have a dick, he scold until like my dad fucked her wife, and wan me to compensate his pet/wife bitch who didnt noe how to drive a waja properly....

Malaysia is still good.... weekend can go curve 1u midvalley.... pavillion also I havent been there. Night go mamak or pool; Can use hotlink sms alot of ppl; battery charge once a week in london charge once in 3 days here. Can have cheap padini and hang ten shirt offer, then ask a girl to help you buy a couple's tee for 20% discount.
Get stunned when ppl hand over to you xpax promotion sheet . Go bathe yourself with sweat without worrying how much you've got to pay for a futsal match. (even if u wan to get irritated and on fire very easily also worth it... haha). Wake up see sun afternoon hear thunder. Wear as sexy as u want or dont wear also wont die(of freezing). Go cinema watch movie can eat popcorn. Drive around and complain fuel expensive instead of tube and bus expensive. Go eat dried fried pork belly rice (gon chau far yok) instead of fried rice with maggi perencah and some taste the difference jumbo king praws (expensive like shit). Go clubbing and date girls. Go work also can kao girls.. lols. Dived in to the warm waters of lang tengah instead of falling into the cold hyde park pond while ppl laughing @ malaysian monkeys chasing football. Watch astro also dont know what channel to click. Go london can use hotlink go malaysia cant use mobile world. Drive myvi instead of gazing at lamborghini in a showroom.

1 word of conclusion. Go uk study wor who dont wan le? I am very lucky ....




Sunday, 23 March 2008

Easter

Happy 19th birthday to me! Got egged on my head and of course a slice of 20 pounds cheese cake on my face. haha..

Easter's here, meaning we are almost done with this academic year, no more new topics and all left is just exams. Cant believe still I have a feeling that I had just reach this place. Yet its been half a year already. Half of my free time spend during Malaysian Night 2008, some to just hang around, some was spend dotaing doing assignments and revising... just felt like its a short period of time only.

Yay, I am going home again for the 1st time ! Its really the 1st time for this feeling of returning to some place I grew up for past 18years. Actually not really looking forward to it. Perhaps it will be a little foreign to me now. I wonder how it will be like to burn my skin under 30C where I just step on the ice out the cold weather here. I see snow for the 1st time today!

I am tired, physically and mentally, aih .. .feel much older. Shall c ya all soon!